The Darkness Woos Me

depressed-woman

Its silken tentacles reach out to invite me in.

A siren song of letting go and deep sleep call me,

A lure of rest from the endless chatter.

No more,
No more,.

Only the quiet calls.

Free from the endless chatter of not enough,

Free from the chains of shouting and banging,

Sound absorbing walls, deep within my soul.

No one can hear me.

No one can hear me.

If I just lie down and rest a little,

I’ll be lost no more.
Light just beyond my reach teases me.

Who has imprisoned me?
It’s me???

Where is the key?

Where is the key?
Oh. Look. Turn around. The light!
It’s been behind me the whole time?

Nowhere to climb,

Walking through the brambles of darkness.
I am soaked in bright sunlight and beautiful color.

Fresh air on my skin,

Sunshine on my face.

I am home.

I am home.

Love floods my veins.

There is nothing to be but me.

 

Whether you want to admit it or not, darkness in the disguise of self-doubt, self-judgment and self- criticism lies beneath the mask of “everything is fine.”  Admitting that you’re filled with anything beyond the most positive of thoughts, feels dangerous.  You ask yourself scary questions:

  • What if I’m judged?
  • What if I lose business?
  • What if I’m not good enough?

The endless loop of this darkness imprisons you.
What if embracing the darkness took away its power? What if acknowledging the darkness loosened its grasp on you?
Today I encourage you to see that darkness cannot exist without its counterpart—- light. You can choose which aspect of yourself— darkness or light—to focus on.

If you are feeling this way I encourage you to reach out to family and friends or help lines.  You are not as alone as you think you are.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *